Is this really my life?

I started this post May 26, 2012. What you see is exactly what was saved on that day. Life got too busy (and crazy) to finish, but here is it anyway. 

It has almost been a week since my first little girl was born. I feel like things have finally settled down enough that I can soak it all in. My guess is that most of you reading this post are already familiar with my crazy birth story (which I will share my perspective on later), but few know how truly blessed I feel and how I am in awe as I ponder how things have turned out. 

My Mother's Presence: Even though this is my third birth this is the first that my mother has been present for. Her plan was to drive from Seattle to Provo when we thought that baby was close to coming. We really wanted her there and this had me a little nervous because it was such a long drive I didn't want to call her too late and have her miss the birth or call her too soon and have her waiting around for a week till the baby came. 

With my natural birthing programs (Hypobabies) it suggests that you visualize the perfect birth situation- the people there, the time of day, holding your baby for the first time, etc. The problem was I couldn't figure out what would be "perfect." Should I think of it going fast and my mom getting there just in time? Should I think about contractions starting during the night so that way I just wake up my Mom and Geoff in the morning and we have the baby then? 

I came to the conclusion that I didn't know what the perfect birth was supposed to be with this one. I decided that I would put my trust in God. In my prayers I told my Heavenly Father that I knew that He knew what the perfect birth would be, and I asked him to create that for me and to help me trust that it would all happen that way it was supposed to. 

So here is how it all happened. 

A little background with Garrett's birth my first contract was Sunday morning about 9am. They came at a regular increasing rate till my water broke at 3:30am and he was born (2 hours later) at 5:30am Monday morning. 

For Gabriel's birth I felt the first contractions at 9pm on Saturday night. They came at a good pace through the night, then died off Sunday afternoon. Then contractions started up again Sunday night at which point we went to the birth center. I was only dilated to a four and stopped progressing so they sent me home, then they came back Monday afternoon. My water broke at 4:30pm and he was born (2 hours later) at 6:30pm.

Now with Lilly, I started to feel contractions Saturday night about 10pm. I called my mom and told her be ready to drive in tomorrow morning. I felt them again on Sunday and really strong Sunday night.

 

Monday morning- No Contractions! Well, maybe one or two here and there, but I was very baffled and little frustrated. Here I had sounded the alarm with my Mom but now there were no signals that the baby was planning on coming anytime soon. I even told my mom that I felt guilty that things weren't progressing like they should since I alerted everyone. But she assured me that we knew the baby was coming soon and that I could just relax and trust the pace it would come. 




He LOVES his baby.